When I grow up...

Well I stared my class three weeks ago. It has been awesome. I love being able to join in a conversation and feel like I actually know what I'm talking about. It is fun to learn new ways of presenting what is in my mind. I like learning all the tricks to keep a reader interested. it is a fun fun class. anyway I have my story I am working on and most of you have read it but when it is finished in the final form I will post it. I love the feed back I got both criticisms and praise. It is threw your opinions that I can become better so don't hesitate.... look forward to you reading my thoughts.. * smile*

My favorites....

1. sugar
2.love
3. the rush of happiness I feel when Brian smiles at me
4. The fact that Brian still does smile at me.
5. each one of my kids
6. that my dogs love me unconditionally
7. that my kids have no idea how crappy of a mom i am sometimes and love me anyway
8. my bed
9. having Brian next to me in my bed
10. chocolate
11. my ability to find humor in odd things
12. my ability to make friends I love friends
13. yellow flowers.. I love yellow flowers.. they are earths happiness
14. My girlfriends... I need them
15. my big fat crazy family... I love that even though we talk shit about each other occasionally in a tuff spot they would be there for me.
16. My sisters!!!! they need me... lol..jk i need them too
17. My DAD! he gets me like no one ever will.. I love my Dad totally.
18. my MOM! she has showed me so many things in life that she doesn't even know about.
19. LAUGHING i love it.. wish i could do more of it.
20. My Briguy! he is my everything and even though we talk shit about each other...lol.. jk I love hi more each day and I know he loves me!

21.barefoot walks with a good friend

22. fire works

23.kissing

24. crying really hard at a sad movie

25. bread...lol.. all carbs

I slip in bed when you're asleep To hold you close and feel your breath on me Tomorrow there'll be so much to do So tonight I'll drift in a dream with you.



I read this on a friends blog and burst into tears... I'm not even joking.. I think the reality of life just hit me really hard.. My babies that I used to cuddle up in bed with and feel their chubby little hands and kiss their foreheads while they slept. Are not babies anymore!
All to often I say the words. "not right now... Just a second .. go play..maybe.. we'll see... Sooner then I know they will quit asking me to play dolls or pet shops. They will lose interest in sharing their stories they wrote or how cool this Poke'mon is..
Life is complicated and i really get hung up on nothing ever being clean or looking right. This quote just brings the true importance of life to light... who gives a crap if the house is messy! I'm sick of fighting a losing battle anyway....lol..A clean house is just that a clean house ... but a home with kids and love and playing has messes.. and i would much rather have a HOME any day...

All American Rejects

Thanks to a great friend me and Brian got free tickets to go to the AAR concert in Vegas on Friday.. I love that band and all their songs.. we had a blast Tim and Teri were roped into going with us and it made it lots of fun... I had a girl friend to dance around with and Brian had a guy to talk to on the ride up and back.. During the concert the security kept making us stop with the pics so we played around in the parking lot after word.. I think Jess may have thought we were all crazy!!!