Saturday, September 27, 2008
Lately I have felt a little crazy. I don't know how to explain it but hopefully you know what I mean. It seems like every night I go to sleep with great intentions. Only to wake up the next day already defeated. I think " Why clean? It is going to look like crap in an hour anyway." I was trying to explain to my niece that crazyness goes in cycles. Like your period. There is the week were life is great and I am supermom. I love everything and want to make everyone happy.Next is "It's all falling apart week" That would be the time when I try to over organize and get frustrated because (no one cares but me). Then the week of rage (Brian's fav) this is when I scream and yell and can't believe that kids leave there sock outside by the tramp, stuff like that ya know. Then finally the 'whatever' week. I just decide screw it. Well usually at the end of this cycle is the Crazyness part. That night where I stay up and get the house back in order and ready for the "life is great" week.Well anyway I was telling her that I haven't had that part of the cycle in a long time. I just go from Whatever week right into life is great week. It shows too. The house seems really chaotic. I think she understood that crazyness is just a part of the cycle and a needed thing. The crappy thing is I Think I am Going Through Crazyness Menopause. IS THERE A PILL FOR THIS?
Monday, September 22, 2008
Wow 11 ! That went by so fast. My little super hero is growing up faster than a "speeding bullet." I really love you Drake. I love the memories you have made for us. I know that you do so much to help out in this family and I love you for that too. You've always been a good helper. Probably because Dad was in school and you knew I needed you. I love the boy you are and the man I know you will become. Your tender heart is a special thing. Always try and keep it that way. (that is a big reason I fell in love with Dad.) You are a great kid to be around and your humor and personality develop more and more each day. I think you are very witty and funny. Just remember to be respectful of others and never Joke or laugh at others expense. You are the best! We Love You! Happy B-Day!
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Wow! I don't even know what to say. Maybe that is why I haven't said anything all month. I had Mom and Dad over for the first Grandparents Dinner. Little did I know it would also be the last. After they left I was telling the kids that they shouldn't talk about going swimming and all the other things they wanted to do when they had guest over. I told them that they should make them feel important and that we were glad they were there not hurry up and leave so we can swim. They all said okay and well then we went swimming. Anyway, when we got home Brian was gone to his football draft so I put the kids to bed. Then Mom called and said oh were moving and oh yeah in 2 weeks. What? I was like Oh. Yeah I just thought Oh. I just didn't know what to say. I got off the phone and had a breakdown. I think it was the shock of it was gonna happen so fast. I felt like the wind got knocked out of me. I text Brian and told him. I told him that my heart hurt. He knows that means its serious. I know it may sound dumb to a lot of people but I was truly heart broken. I kept thinking "Who's gonna do all my hair brained ideas with me?" I felt lost. I am so glad I have awesome big sisters that I can call. I am glad that they feel the same way as me about most things so I can call them and cry about our Mom and Dad moving away and I don't have to feel dumb. I know that Mom and Dad will have a good experience. It just sucks that it happened so fast. I think it will take awhile to get used to no Sunday dinners at Mom's. I will really really miss you. I cry when I think about it. I know time heals all wounds. and I hope this adventure is great for Mom and Dad. I wish you the Best.